STAY TRUE: A Memoir
保持真實:回憶錄
內容介紹
「是我讀過的最好的回憶錄之一。許華的敘事沒有浪費文字、場景或聲音,而創造了一個分裂的敘事,宛如1989年最精心策劃的Maxell錄音帶的兩面。」——基斯·萊蒙,紐約時報暢銷書《重型:美國回憶錄》作者 (Kiese Laymon, New York Times bestselling author of Heavy)
「我是一個會講故事的人,情節轉折保證驚人與毀滅。」
《紐約客》特約撰稿人許華,寫下自身扣人心弦的回憶錄。這本書講述了友誼、悲傷以及對自我的追尋,還有藝術能帶給人的慰藉。
在十八歲的許華眼中,肯(Ken)的問題是——他恰好地和其他人一模一樣,他愛大衛馬修(Dave Matthews)、A&F(Abercrombie & Fitch)和兄弟會。肯的日裔美國家庭已經在美國生活了數代,是一支主流;許華是台灣移民的兒子,喜愛製作小誌(zines)和出沒灣區唱片行。肯的身份代表了他所有定義自己相反的那一面。許華和肯唯一的共同點是,無論他們如何參與其中,美國文化似乎都不適合他們。
但除去對彼此的第一印象,許華和肯還是成為了好友。他們的這種友誼建立在深夜抽煙談話、加州海岸的長途自駕公路之旅,以及日常大學生活中宛如教科書般的成功和屈辱之上。然後,肯離開了,暴力、無意義的死亡猛烈來襲,從他們第一次見面不到三年之後,肯就在一場劫車事件中喪生。
許華決心保留最親密的朋友留給他的一切,也就是他的記憶。於是,他轉向寫作。《保持真實》是他從那以後一直在寫的書,這是一部細述平凡與不凡的成長故事,是一部振奮人心的回憶錄,穿越世界尋找意義和歸屬感的動人追尋。
作者介紹
書評
“Hua Hsu offers, with seeming effortless grace and lucidity. . .a map to his soul’s becoming. He shows how he constructed an armor against the injustices of the world, one made only of porousness and transparency, the only armor worth donning. This kind and degree of sharing is a rare gift.” —Jonathan Lethem, National Book Critics Circle Award-winning author of Motherless Brooklyn
“Deep feelings coursed through me as I read Hua Hsu's story: Grief, nostalgia, pity, terror, mercy…Stay True is a crucial, sense-making, healing book.” —Maxine Hong Kingston, author of The Woman Warrior
“I was softly heartbroken by Stay True, which is an elegy not just for a friend but for so much else that feels lost and irreplaceable—a time of tender idleness and unmediated presence, a way that it was once possible to be young. The things that make Hua Hsu’s writing so singular—his searching grace, his rigorous sensitivity, his ability to make a living world out of the seemingly liminal—crystallize in this once-in-a-lifetime book.” —Jia Tolentino, New York Times bestselling author of Trick Mirror
“In this elegant, open-hearted elegy for his fallen friend, Hsu does the labor of love, of taking time to recall and make record of the quotidian detail of another man's life. In this way, he reveals for us all how aesthetics are products of both relationships and of terrible loss. The river of this memoir is quiet and deep, unassuming, it enters the reader and changes us with its capacity for connection."” —Sarah Schulman, author of Let the Record Show
“I was a storyteller with a plot twist guaranteed to astound and destroy,’ Hua Hsu says of himself, in a tone that is slightly ironic. And yet what he has achieved in Stay True is exactly that: to astound and destroy his reader. This book is exquisite and excruciating and I will be thinking about it for years and years to come.” —Rachel Kushner, two-time National Book Award finalist and New York Times bestselling author of The Flamethrowers and The Mars Room
“Hua Hsu’s Stay True is a rich, intelligent, and beautifully crafted portrait of just about everything that matters in life. Here is friendship, art, and family cast against a distinctly American backdrop of migration in language so precise and subtle that you might not even notice how it breaks and mends your heart.” —Dinaw Mengestu, author of All Our Names
“In crafting Stay True, Hua Hsu has opted to trust the consequential size of memories shared with Ken over what we readers feel we are owed. The result is one of the finest memoirs I've ever read.”—Kiese Laymon, New York Times bestselling author of Heavy
“New Yorker staff writer Hsu braids music, art, and philosophy in his extraordinary debut. . .Hsu parses the grief of losing his friend and eloquently captures the power of friendship and unanswerable questions spurred in the wake of senseless violence. The result is at once a lucid snapshot of life in the nineties, an incredible story of reckoning, and a moving elegy to a fallen friend.” —Publishers Weekly *starred review*
“Stay True feels like one of those books that is the sum total of a writer’s life in thinking, craft, and curiosity, made felt at last, so that when the sentences come, they come with a deliberate, patient, and precise force. Hsu takes on the central theme of a friend’s violent loss and casts from that void a story that, somehow, despite the hurt and confusion, embraces the world around it with a steady and capacious centrifugal force. This is the endeavor of writing at its most open, meticulous, forgiving and tender—which is to say, this is writing at its best.” —Ocean Vuong, New York Times bestselling author of On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous
“Masterfully structured and exquisitely written. Hsu’s voice shimmers with tenderness and vulnerability as he meticulously reconstructs his memories of a nurturing, compassionate friendship. The protagonists’ Asian American identities are nuanced, never serving as the defining element of the story, and the author creates a cast of gorgeously balanced characters. A stunning, intricate memoir about friendship, grief, and memory.” —Kirkus Reviews *starred review*
“One of the finest and most heart-rending remembrances I’ve ever read. Hsu writes about grief and nostalgia, youth and identity, family and friendship, with elegant, heartbreaking clarity. I wanted to linger over every memory, to stay with Hsu as he rendered the vast expanses of time that defined youth—car rides, browsing at record stores, collaging together an identity from loves and hates. This is a book of exquisite pain and beauty. Absolutely unmissable.” —Literary Hub, "Most Anticipated Books of 2022"
“The brilliant New Yorker staff writer. . .describes a formative friendship he had as a young man in the Bay Area—a friendship formed around what the two young men had in common and what they didn’t.” —The Millions, “Most Anticipated: The Great Second-Half 2022 Book Preview”